when something happens at once?

My mind is flying around right now and its not for some random reason that its happening that way................
2 girls that i have some feeling with , talked about one movie at the same time.

"The Notebook"

i mean there is nothing wrong with talking about the same movie at the same time but
why is it have to be them and not others?
I talked to the girl that i want to talk to the most in the world but i couldn't tell her anything................
talking to another girl that i want to find out who she really is but i was thinking about the other girl
what is wrong with me?
Funny isn't it that i just want to keep everything here so one day i will come back and read it and remember that once i have a big confusion in my mind......................
Good night

Fact

coming to think about it, i learned that being in a relationship for so long and then suddenly go out of it can make a person very LONELY................
Sitting down alone and thinking about all the things that i have done over the pass year. I only remember that i used to have someone next to me when i go for a movie or dinner.
I know it sound very stupid but it is the feeling that i thought i don have to hind it since no one read this blog anyway :P
told myself that i want to be alone for another year but i also don know how long that going to last me for. In the end i know that whatever happen, its happens for a reason